Hard to get it right

I think too much.
I am not thinking enough.

I need to be spantaneous.
Or should I organize my truckload of thoughts before starting?

I don't want a bunch of gibberish,
but I am not ready to write an epic.

I have too many perspectives, voices, ideas, and feelings,
and the clock is ticking.

My drafts are cramming my hard drive,
my frustrations are sky high.

Oh my beloved Peru, Peru, Peru...
Sigh.